“Much of my life has been devoted to trying not to cry in front of people who loved me. … You clench your teeth. You look up. You tell yourself that if they see you cry, it will hurt them, and you will be nothing but A Sadness in their lives, and you must not become a mere sadness, so you will not cry, and you say all of this to yourself while looking up at the ceiling, and then you swallow even though your throat does not want to close and you look at the person who loves you and smile.” -The Fault in our Stars -John Green
He loves Cas, and I wil never believe differently. You can say it’s platonic if that helps you sleep at night, but you don’t get that^ reaction unless you love someone. A lot.